My highway for life...

Sometimes I wonder about this purpose, this will that God has for me. Actually, I wonder about it all the time, to be honest. I really have little direction in my life right now. I know what my goal is for the next 6 or 7 months, but beyond that I am left to the great unknown. Fortunately, I am connected to our omniscient God. He knows the way, but I do wonder which way He is planning on taking me. I am extremely happy where I am right now. I am surrounded by loving people who create authentic community; a rare commodity in most parts of the "religious" world. That word makes me laugh sometimes, by the way: religion. I was told that I was religious this past week. I replied, "Oh no, I need to work on that." Not to come off heathenistic or anything, but religion is created by humans. It can become just as much of an idol as any other vice; serving yourself without acknowledging the need for our Creator and the selflessness He demonstrated. So back to this wonderful community. I have personally seen selflessness spill from the compassionate hearts of the people making up this community. A true camaraderie that focuses on connecting and caring for the individuals that are facing life together. I use to be a loner. While in high school I rarely saw anyone outside of the class room. I did a few extra curricular's but nothing that forced me to consistently life with another person who knew all my junk. College changed that; I lasted one semester before being drawn into a community. A happy "coincidence" landed me directly next to a person who would change my college experience forever. This person probably doesn't even know what an influence they had on me, but it took one time of going to a weekly meeting for me to jump on board with the missions program they had. Amazingly I went the rest of my college career working with them. Graduation was a crossroads of heres and theres that brought me to a place with all closed doors until a small door off in the distance cracked open to shed light on the next step of my journey. So here I am, a chain of not so random coincidences that brings me to a bend in the road, one of which hides the path before me. "Should I stay or should I go, " which is always followed by that little electric guitar sequence and a faint british accent, or maybe that's just in my own head; ANYways, this is the main fork in the road that I face. I look at pictures of foreign lands and imagine that I would one day see those exact buildings with peeling paint and red archways. Is this a place that I will pose in front of one day, smile at the camera and experiencing an adventure beyond my "wildest imagination"? Placing myself there, I feel that familiar tug; The one that has me strap on my chacos and backpack, secure my passport and double check my plane ticket (in my imagination there is a couple grand required for this part). I have time. I don't have to know right now; that is exactly why God hasn't given me those glasses that help me see the situation clearly from his perspective. There is something to be said for the transformation of my heart towards this city I live in now. I never would have foreseen this as being a stop along the way, at least not beyond college; and yet, here I am. And I don't want to leave. I can feel the Lord loosening my grip on my future. Whatever I hold onto tightly always seems to hold me back and thus is removed to ensure I keep moving forward. I am grateful for the assurance of His stratigic plan, one which He gives us wisdom about, "Not the kind of wisdom that belongs to this world or the rulers of this world, who are soon forgotten. No, the wisdom [I] speak of is the mystery of God--His plan that was previously hidden, even though he made it for our ultimate glory before the world began." (1 Cor. 2:6-7) So here I am, searching, but maybe now for wisdom instead of an answer.